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Sometimes I think about what to write in my blog, and it all seems too forced for me. I could talk about how I see things in the world and how I alter my perception by just literally trying to... but it doesn't feel right I guess.

I could also write how I like to dance and sing and fart, but I feel like most of these are obvious and would be perceived as immature rather than humor/satire.

Even what I'm saying now seems forced. I think about what to write and write it. I don't know why it seems so bad to me. I guess I just want my words to flow out, not caring about who sees or what they mean. I guess I don't want these to have a predetermined purpose and I don't want to write myself as better than everyone else.

I just want to be me, and I want everything I do to be a reflection of me. I like to think that I don't predetermine or force who I am. I feel the need to proof read this, but like, I wrote down shit that came to my mind, why would I need to edit that? Why do I even care this much?

I suppose I just don't want this to be fake just like I don't want to be fake myself. There are so many I's in this blog. I was going to say I don't care, but then I realized I kinda care, I'm just not going to change it so it doesn't matter. It doesn't even matter that I'm telling you that, or this. What is even the purpose of this anyway?

My friend told me you could put pictures in these so let me find one.

I love all things that mix pizza and cats in anyway.